Sunday, March 30, 2008
30th MARCH 2008, SUNDAY
a good weather to start a good day.
i know that my previous post sounds offending to you* and makes me seems sad.
after thinking it over yesterday night,
i ought to thank you in return instead of blaming everything.out of a million male teenagers in singapore,you are the only one that became a part of my life.
we are two in a million. ( some song title from Sclub7?? )
you gave me the chance to learn:
+ how to love,
+ how to care for someone i have no blood relations to,
+ how to be considerate and understanding to others,
+ how to stay cheerful in my lowest point of life.
i feel very fortunate having you in my life,
even if it is short term, it created an impact on me.
a positive and beneficial one.
at least i am not the single and lonely girl as the past anymore,
i have someone whom i truly love and love me back in return.
so i really want to thank you for giving me an opportunity to share with you
SO MUCH of your joy and laughter,
introduce me your friends and widen my social circle.
people say : we will lose something to gain something back in return,
but i don't agree with what they say.
because i gained two things,
- a learning experience from our relationship,
- a strong relationship with you.
- i learnt to understand others more
- i learnt to be stronger.
so, to end it all, i wish to thank you again.
take care and i hope that you will learn to control your emotions :))
are we still considered a pair anyway?? please give me an appropriate answer soon.
10:55:00 AM
Saturday, March 29, 2008
29th march 2008, saturday
why is it always happening between us EVERY month,don't tell me you have menstruations which makes you moody.asking you out seems like a tough task nowyou wouldn't share your problem with me from the start.don't you know that whenever you are down, it affects me too?- your attitude problem- your cool-ness towards me- your refusal to meet up- your disinterest when talking to me.if ever i am bothering you, just tell me straight in my face,and i will leave you alone to cool down.don't keep it to yourself and blow up all of a sudden,it hurts alot, for your information.i agree you need some privacy but i have my pride too.i am not your plush which you can play with when you are happy,and to be letting you vent your anger on when you are down.PLEASE, i have feelings.i tried to be understanding,get everything right before making a conclusion.but time after time, all your actions 'slash' me deeply.i know that you are very troubled now and i shouldn't add on to it,but i can't take it anymore so i am shouting it all out here.i just want you to know,all your actions is affecting our relationship and i don't know you anymore.please stop it or our ties might just break off.if ever, one day, your feelings have faded and decided to let go,just tell me and i promise i will leave silently.basically, these are all one sided thinkings.i really really wish that you can talk to me about what exactly is going on.no matter what, i am still your (girl)friend.
4:46:00 PM
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
26 MARCH 2008, WEDNESDAY
i have neglect my blog for so many days,
basically nothing much is happening nowadays.or rather, there is.MONDAY
milestone check this* morning was perfect.
questions all answered fully this time round compared to the previous one.
had lunch in class ( yes, a class eat together. we paid for it anyway )
our sumptuous lunchbox.
the food was ok, and made me bloat up. *burp*
TUESDAY
nothing much happened today* actually,
so no comments on this day.
TODAY
school is always so usual, so don't have to expect surprises along the way.
managed to download some games from the net and install to angela's PSP.
i must comment, Loco Roco is damn cute. it can split up into smaller selves. aww~
that is all for today.
i haven't seen you* since last monday when you came to fetch me,
chances of seeing you are getting lower and lower nowadays.
is it due to the numerous quarrels that faden our feelings for one another?
is it due to my attitude problems and mood swings?
or maybe
it is because our feelings have started to fade?
i don't miss you that much anymore.
what is happening to me?
8:56:00 PM
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
18TH MARCH 2008. TUESDAY
i swear this is going to be a very boring post.
so don't curse or blame me because it is your choice to read it.
CHOICES HAVE CONSEQUENCES. ( familiar yea?? )
school life are often the same.
nothing exciting actually, so was today.
dragged my heavy feet from class to class the whole day,
and it ended somehow in a blink of my eyes.
had english enrichment programme and it was rather funny.
i don't seem to find the points the lecturer said on the slideshow,
but jiajie said it was in there.
oh my, what happened to me?
dreaming with my eyes wide opened?
the hour passes very fast too, amazing.
saw farhana, christina and wen jun outside school
and chatted with them till 7pm.
farhana told me she didn't have a good impression of me last time,
because i was always bullying her and all.
but i swear i turned over a new leaf,
i am not as playful and lazy as the past already.
i do my schoolworks and is more understanding now.
and please stop scaring others that i will not return them their money, etc.
JUNMING,
I SWEAR I WILL RETURN YOU THE $10 I BORROWED FROM YOU
ON 29TH FEBBRUARY 2008 AT HOUGANG PLAZA
I WON'T RUN AWAY. TRUST ME, DON'T LISTEN TO THAT EVIL FARHANA!!!
phew~ felt so much relieved now. hahas.
so that is all for today.
got accepted by my friends again was a good thing to end a day.
I MISS THOSE GRADUATED FRIENDS SO MUCH & the dumb brained boy too.
7:50:00 PM
Monday, March 17, 2008
MONDAY, 17MARCH 2008.
had social studies milestone check today,
it was so stupid or rather i was stupid because i got out of points for the SEQ..
lets pray that my geography grades will pull me up.
had assembly today,
the speaker, Mr Tan, was so irritating,
he sticked to the first slide and talked irrelevant things for 24minutes.
and the whole assembly was supposed to end at 2.45pm ended at 3 instead.
DUMMY came to fetch me, we reconciled yesterday.
pray that we will not have any misunderstandings again. *fingers cross tightly*
he walked over to SPC and i already noticed his from afar, by his LIME GREEN SKINNY.
oh my. so eye-catching and kaixin said that he camouflages with the plants on the path.
well, i strongly agree with what she says.
and here are the proof.
just that his was of a brighter green.
i went home to change and we strolled to rivervale mall.that DUMMY got hungry so we went to LJS,there is only one share cause dinner would be ready when i get home.the gloomy and hungry and greedy DUMMY
after eating and all, we walked back to my houseand i bought ice cream along the way.GOSH! wonders how much of calories went into me.i got so sensitive because someone kept pinching my fats as if trying make me realisei am fat.waited for bus 85 with him at the bus stop and took some pictures.he is praticing he electrify skills to my camera, lucky it still functions well.
we are flawless. aww~
and that all for today.i gonna breakdown if i don't sleep now, bye~
that dumb brained boy is madly missed and loved
9:54:00 PM
Sunday, March 16, 2008
16 MARCH 2008, SUNDAY
spent the whole day at home mugging social studies
for the milestone check tomorrow morning.
finally managed to re-revise one and a half chapter.
fingers crossed for the test..
++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
this picture is dedictated to *you,
words can't explain how i am feeling right now.
but i hope, deep down in your heart,
you can feel it.
IMISSYOU
7:51:00 PM
Friday, March 14, 2008
had chinese mock exam ( full paper ) today,
time was insufficient for my composition. damn it
rotted in school alone till 2pm for oral,
and what the hell, only got 29/40
am i really doing so bad??
alright, i am so damned demoralised by things happening around me.
i haven't complete my :
1) english comprehension and composition because i misplace my TYS
2) POA worksheets and it is due by monday
3) study for SS milestone check for monday
4) revision for biology's new taught chapter cause i don't understand
what the hell is happening to me. why am i so inefficient in doing my schoolwork?!
ARRGH!!!
i should stop thinking that studying is a burden,
I MUST FACE IT!
8:46:00 PM
Thursday, March 13, 2008
13th MARCH 2008, THURSDAY
got this picture from vincent's friendster.an art of our class during sec2. miss those good old days.
woke up damn early today,
actually can sleep for another 1hour and 10 min,
but cause lifeng treating me to McDonald's breakfast so i woke up.
li feng's and mine ( Sausage Mcmuffin W/ egg )
see li feng so excited over our breakfast
li feng caught me eating muffin, sneakishly.
after eating, it was only 8.40am and we went to the toiletand got shocked by the janitor cause she shouted at us cause she want wash toiletnevermind, we go first floor's toilet.if you give girls a camera, they will CAM WHORE~ 
had geography test, damn shit i don't know what i writing cause very sleepy.then after that went for social studies workshop,it was conducted my our ex school teacher,don't really know what he trying to explain. XPPdamned damned damned.my progress in studies seems to have slow down. nevermind, i go practice my subjects now.
- zoom off -
9:04:00 PM
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
12 march 2008, wednesday
was told that POA remedial start at 8am today,
but i left home late so took bus 62.
i was messaging him and alight the bus without looking.
and when i finally walked to the traffic light,
i found out i got off the wrong bus stop.
saw kaixin, meiping and liqun still at the foyer slacking when i reach,
and they told me lesson starts at 9am.
alright, so many mistakes at the start of the day.
hope i don't mistake another guy as my boyfriend. XDD kidding
rained the whole day today,
studied for geography till i becoming tweety already..
finally unloading it tomorrow.
*editted*
having breakfast at mcdonald's with lifeng and it's her treat whee~
that three golden words seems to be so hard to say now.
what happened?
7:15:00 PM
11 march 2008, tuesday
another day of remedial with practicals.
biology was on enzyme reactions,
damn stupid, the experiment was a failure i guess.
chemistry's one was still alright,
but the aqueos ammonia is so pungent,
and when added into the other substance,
it is so slimy. ( i covered the test tube with my thumb to mix it. )
the stupid slimy liquid
went to kovan with mum searching for some facial clinic,walked till i got damn tired.
managed to find one and the doctormade an appointment with me at his another clinic in KEMBANGAN PLAZA.and the consultation fees is $60 without any prescription.shit you, i haven't consider and you made my appointment.nevermind, shall call the the skin specialist myself, since the amount is the same.
very tired now.my bed is calling for me to go to lala land already.
6:47:00 PM
Monday, March 10, 2008
10th MARCH 2008, MONDAY
went to school late today,
chemistry and biology practical class's timeslot got switched
but teachers weren't aware.
fortunately, there is a chemistry who is available to teach.
the theory part for the practical are so complicated,
hopefully i can understand everything when it comes to Olevels period
headed home after school,
rested awhile and went for the polyclinic.
hopefully the appointment date to the skin specialist will come soon
i tried to be nice to you,
i tried to give you utmost care,
i tried to provide a listening ear,
i tried to make you feel loved,
i tried not to vent my anger and stress on you,
i tried to make you smile,
i tried to make you feel happy,
i tried to meet your needs,
i tried to go with your plan,
i tried to be more understanding,
i tried to appreciate everything of you,
i tried to understand you.
BUT
i only got back, disinterest.
so can you please kindly tell me,
WHAT WENT WRONG THIS TIME?
9:37:00 PM
Sunday, March 9, 2008
9th MARCH 2008, SUNDAY
woke up by mum at 7am plus to go for temple visit.so after praying and all, went to granny's house and rotted.tomorrow is the start of the holiday,relax time? no way~there will be remedials, test, and workshops.
and now the problem is,we don't know what topic to study for our geography's global warming test.nevermind, will ask the teacher tomorrow.that's all for now.will update if later in the night
2:38:00 PM
Saturday, March 8, 2008
7TH MARCH 2008, FRIDAY
last day of the workshop.
intended to skip after lunch so can go for hanyang's chalet,
at the same time, surprise the DUMB BRAINED BOY. hehehe
but i found out i left my handphone at home,
how am i suppose to contact his friends?
the course was usual today,
kept doing speed reading until the world in front of me twirl~
left during lunch and slacked at home till 4pm before going DOWNTOWN
met yee may and her boyfriend first and went in together.
and when JOSH saw me, he didn't realised it was me at first glance,
when he looked closely, he shouted
" HEY!! WHY ARE YOU HERE. OH MY GOD. YOU STUPID PIG, LIED TO ME "
i just wanted to surprise him, but he got
surprised+shock+worked up = MY SUCCESS
he played mahjong with his friends, and the tiles are so small.
making everyone feel like they are in giant land.
and received a call from mrs lau asking about my disappearance. XPP
started the fire and cooked some food
the one in green, holding a stick with marshmallow is me. ^^V
while yeemay's boyfriend (the one in front of me from the above picture)
and i cook for everyone...
JOSH is flirting girl. ( talking to his classmate in stripes actually )
i caught you.
you FISH-MONGER, got pretty girls never share with me
after eating and all, his friends wanted to play pool,
so i tagged along.
his friends are really professional,
everytime they hit, their target ball will 100% go in.
the DUMB BOY kept rushing me to go home as it is already 11plus,
so he sent me to the bus stop.
here i am now, blogging.
had a great day today. :))
the shock look on his face
12:57:00 AM
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
5th MARCH 2008, WEDNESDAY
ADAM KHOO'S WORKSHOP OFFICIALLY STARTS TODAY~
early in the morning, after everyone was dismissed from morning assembly,
the sec4(s) and 5(s) were asked to stay behind.
this is what happened to the secondary4 boys.
is it meant to be some sort of "motivation" for them.
what a tragic life they have.
____SKIP THE LOWER PORTION IF MOTIVATIONS IS BORING TO YOU_____
*snap*
alright, back to the workshop.
Candie was our trainer for the morning part.
there were many quotes she made which really made sense.
CHOICES HAVE CONSEQUENCES
Success is moving to your goal EVERY SINGLE DAY
Greatest failure in life is not participating 100%.
Even IF you fail, you gain learning experience
yes, every move of yours do end up with an ending.it is how you plan to go that journey.never give up if you fail, because if you never try,you will never know what you will become. serious.so maybe you can ask yourself one thing now,WHAT IS IT THAT YOU REALLY WANT?think about it and jot it down somewhere.this question realy made me think.
especially thisWHAT IS YOU PURPOSE OF WAKING UP EVERYDAY?well, i am still soul searching for the right answer.
SELF-ESTEEM IS FEELING.you have to first learn to accept, acknowledge and appreciate yourselfto make others feel the same way of you. in the past, you think you can't change other people thinks of you. it is right to a certain extent, because, you have to change your way of presenting youself,YOU can change how people looks at you.
*clap clap*Candie left, and here came Stuart.he talked to us about money matters.yes, money cannot buy happiness and love.but if you use the money in a much more meaningful way,it does gives happiness, not to yourself, but to others.stuart told us that many of his millionaire friends are thrifty,but they do charitable things.that is simply impressive, i salute them..
-cuttiing short a little-off go Stuart, in came Melvin.he a real good entertainer, and made us laugh so much.BUT~ he motivated me through listening to his stories.if we, ourselves, do not make the effort to study and fail,the impact of failure does not only affects us,but on our parents inversely..who doesn't wish to see their child succeed in life,and which parents would not feel bad and blame themselves if their child did not do well?maybe not all, but there is.
during all this listenings,everyone's stomach is grumbling and FINALLY IT'S DINNER TIME.the food provide by the school ( which i wish they hadn't) was this.
simply D-E-M-O-R-A-L-I-S-I-N-Gforget it. what is over, is over. :))
and before being dismissed, we watched the movie "ROCKY III"alright, the moral of the story is,you thinkings affects your actions and this too inversely shows the result.
first and foremost,i want to thanks you for reading till the end.i know my post is hell long today,but i am trying to share what i have learnt today,and hope that readers out there do benefit abit from my post.
9:55:00 PM
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
11:28:00 PM
4 March 2008, Tuesday
it's only 2.48 and i am at home already.
i 'skipped' social studies remedial due to my extreme stomach ache.
don't what i ate wrong this time.
hmm. nothing special happened today actually,
just took alot of pictures (candid shot) of phelia and jessica
kaixin's i forgot to send over to my phone.
and there one rather funny of jiajie, but she might get angry if she see it here.
jessica graffitying on kaixin's thigh [ phelia monitering ]
caught phelia~ emoing. hahaha
the latter photo edited under phelia's approval :))
and this is artistic. don't you think so?
no edition guranteed
while waiting for mrs lau to come, kaixin and jessica found TWO BOMBS OUTSIDE
DO NOT LEAVE YOUR BELONGINGS UNATTENTED
IF YOU SEE ANY SUSPICIOUS ARTICLE,
PLEASE INFORM OUR STAFFS, OR CALL 999
joshua's word: if you don't call your 999, your pigu will drop from the sky
2:50:00 PM
Sunday, March 2, 2008
HAPPY TWO MONTHS DUMB BRAINED NOOBIE~
1st March 2008
skipped English tuition after attending maths ( feel like a bad school girl now )went home to change and met noobie at AMK Hub.i was late and he was so punctual this time round.kill me please
the movie we wanted to watch starts at 2.10pm ( he checked it on the papers )so we shopped around and lunched at the food court.sorry that i have been so thrifty nowadays,i have no job or maybe cause i have no time to spare.and i burnt a hole in my pocket pool-ing yesterday.the movie we watched. over- exaggerated and stupid.overall still ok. but sorry, not my exact cup of tea.
and i realised something today, JOSH's head is really hard.we were looking for our row and it was dark in the theatre,we didn't look out and our head banged into one another.lucky i didn't see stars. hahas.after movie, we walked around a little.then he left for soccer and i went home
WORDS FOR YOU
thanks for always being there for me,
tolerating me when i throw tantrums at you out of no reasons,
surprising me with little things,
becoming planned during meetings and all,
make the effort to make me smile when i am down.
i will change and not be so naive anymore,
i understand that you have your problems and needs time alone,
sometimes things i said might be hurting, I AM SORRY
this path is what we choose to go,
so lets face whatever comes our way.
i believe love can cross all hurdles.
ILOVEYOU
4:35:00 PM
simply D-E-M-O-R-A-L-I-S-I-N-G
