or that the joy and laughters you have from your friends in school are enough to wipe off the existence of me.

i hope you can understand what i am feeling over here, i don't sense you anymore. you are more like a passer-by in my life now.

recently, this feeling occur to me again. it never had ever since i been with you. the feeling of missing someone so badly but unable to tell the person in fear that the person might not like you or might be scare away by you.

and showering someone with so much love and concern but not getting any response or that the person don't seem to sence it at all..

we are drifting so far away now, further and further from one another as time goes byand i am feeling so single now.

both physically and mentally.

probably another misunderstanding

25th APRIL 2008, FRIDAY

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESSICA CHUA~

rushed to school and arrived at 6.46 or so

bearing with my muscle ache on only on side of my thigh,

thought that the girls have arrived but they are still on the way.

brought cheesecake for jessica to celebrate

and afraid that it might melt off so went to school early.

sang birthday song and ate the cake,

&& jiajie very cute

told her to meet 6.45,

when i call her at 7, she is still at home.

and when we finish gorging the cake, she came. ==

some pictures of the birthday girl.

and she is 17 now~ wahaha

woke up and ponder about going for CIP then run away for tuition in midway,
or to skip tuitions, be a "good girl" and stick to CIP for the stated time.
my final decision was to be the "good girl"

when jiajie, phelia, jessica, kaixin and i reached the block, it was only 8am.
i didn't dare press the doorbell as residents might still be slacking in bed.
and they might get angry and dislike our school more [ which they already had ]

some residents have packed all their newspaper and toys for us beforehand,
others just ignore us when we pressed the bell.
jiajie encounter one who 'peep' but just wouldn't open the door. [ weird people ]
some totally ignore us. totally


although the task was tough, kaixin and i saw something rare

saw it??


finshed the block we were assigned to, we went to the meeting point to rest.
mrs lau said that another block was yet to be collect so we went there.
the boys 'offered' to help, but they just slacked around,
so i called them parasites.

headed home after everything and rotted at home till now,
currently waiting for the movie to finish loading, such a long wait.

Virgo - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits: You're incredibly thoughtful and able to give your partner what they need most. You are totally logical. You can deal with problems without involving your emotions. A good work ethic. You'll do whatever it takes (within reason) to make your relationship work. Your negative traits: Sometimes you are so focused on your goals that you let your relationships suffer You tend to be a perfectionist - and expect perfection from your mate as well You are picky. So picky that you rather be single than with someone who has a few minor faults. Your ideal partner: Values success in life as much as you do Fits a checklist of qualities you've been looking for since childhood Like you, is more practical and realistic than romantic Your dating style: Active. You're a bit hyper, so you'd prefer a date that involved rollerblading in the park or hiking. Your seduction style: You may seem a bit shy, but once you open up to someone - you're totally uninhibited You like to set the scene first - candles, music, nice sheets A bit obsessed with cleanliness, you may want to shower first with your love Tips for the future: Soften up a little. Vulnerability is sexy - and feels great over time. Lower your standards a little. Look past a messy desk or someone being five minutes late. Praise your partner more. You make expect them to be successful, but complements are still appreciated. Best color to attract mate: Navy blue Best day for a date: Wednesday

You Are 60% Boyish and 40% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch. Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes. You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them. You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

Your Birthdate: September 3

You are certain and confident when you choose to love someone. Even though your romantic choices may be unconventional - you stand behind them. Your friends never know you as well as a romantic partner does. Number of True Loves You'll Have: 3 Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 5 You are most compatible with people born on the 3rd, 12th, 21st, and 30th of the month.

You Make a Good First Impression

You probably are making a much better impression than you realize. Social situations can be a bit awkward for you at times, and you tend to over think what you say and do. If you make a social faux pas, you remember it a lot longer than anyone else does. Just relax and do your best. There are little things you can do to improve your social image. Express more of an interest in the people around you, and be a good listener. The secret of fascinating people is that they find everyone else fascinating!

Your Love Style is Agape

You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner. Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare. You are willing to sacrifice your world for your sweetie. Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you. For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.

You Are a Good Student of Men

You're pretty good at knowing what men are thinking But you're not dead on 100% of the time Let your guy off the hook sometimes... because you may be reading him all wrong!

heavy heavy heavy.
i loaded my bag with so many books today and it weighs approximately,
hmmm.. 3kg? [ don't want to exaggerate ]

before maths class,
kaixin and i took a shortcut from the back of the block to the class,
and upon reaching the class, i went to scare teacher from the window.
i guess it wasn't very good [ he didn't saw me anyway ]
because his expression changed. *oops

first time in my sec5 year did i pass POA's test.
7/14 marks. a miracle occur on me. AMEN*

did composition for chinese up till 4.07pm, oh my.
the writings have drained practically ALL my energy,
but we still have the flier distribution for our CIP programme this saturday.
fortunately the block was divided into kaixin, jessica, phelia, jiajie and me,
so the 'burden' isn't that much.
and everyone except jiajie and i have finished their job and went home.



dropped by kaixin's house to take a look at the hamsters.
took a couple of pictures of them.

and kaixin took out more baby ones,

and one is super cute. so tiny mini~

that all about my super tiring day.

you are not as great as you may seem, and i am not going your way this time round. i am not your puppet!!