Sunday, May 31, 2009
mid semester exam is coming.
been cooping up at home through the weekends,
mugging OB and MicroEcons.
never felt so lifeless before.
not because of that broken relationship please~
lose sense of time here and there,
eating occasionally.
i am bound to get super super fat.
dozed off when studying Motivation for OB,
and woke up feeling so crappy,
must be due to the low blood pressure.
whatever..
i am going to go to sleep again soon,
wake up early tomorrow to study again and go to war..
sorry for this boring post,
but i, myself, had been feeling so bored the whole day.
definitely no relations to the broken relationships..
&& thanks for those kind words from all my friends,
i am fine,
don't worry (:
i am just plain bored from cooping up at home for 48hours.
ciaos.
11:46:00 PM
Saturday, May 30, 2009
today was supposedly our first week together,
but it all ended yesterday.
through those days when you were wooing me, i agree, i have the feelings for you.
therefore i accepted you and asked you to be my boyfriend,
i was very clear in mind at that point of time that i will accept you for who you are.
for the first few days, we were really sweet,
messaging one another so much in a day.
but things got different from Tuesday,
i was really to depressed over my sister's problem and i just don't wish to talk to anyone,
and i didn't reply your message.
you then showed me attitude,
that i am not sharing my problems with you when you are my boyfriend,
but do you even understand how agonised i was and i can't even control my feelings?
but that problem was soon resolved.
the next day,
you messaged me right when you were awake.
but i was still not really in the mood to be sweet talking to you,
however, i had to put on a fake front and text you all those things which i thing would make you happy.
and somehow, in the evening, you were just so random about the opening of a bank account.
i merely asked why is there a need to do so when we already have our individual ones out of curiosity and you told me you were unhappy with that question.
from that point of time, i started thinking.
your random mood had really affected me so much,
throughout the days when you are wooing me till those days we were together.
you are very persistent, stubborn, selfish, over sensitive and really hard to understand.
i don't understand why you just want to be better than 'him',
all you have to do is just have to be yourself, be understanding
but not trying to give me the utmost happiness and everything, No.
if there is love, true understanding between us, the happiness will follow.
your willful thinking brought me to want to meet you today to talk to you,
point out the problems that lies in our relationship,
and the problem in you.
but you argued with the time to meet yesterday night,
pushing it so early and reducing my resting time.
i gave you my reasons but you insisted on coming to my place at 8am and you can rest.
did you ever spare a thought for me?
what do you expect me to do while you are resting?
it was so much pain and courage talking to you throughout our 29minutes of talk over the phone.
all the words that came out from my mouth are really so hurtful but i have no choice,
in hope that all this can go into your mind, make you think through,
and eventually, grow up..
you plead me, you promise you will change just for another chance.
i was really horrible in giving this straight answer of NO.
and your last question really strucked me
"All this while, do you even love me?"
the answer is yes, but your problems had thoroughly overtaken the feelings i had for you.
i tried to fight this bad feelings down, but it took over me.
i guess i heard you cried, it made my heart aches totally,
but i have to be strong, to end this agony of the both of us.
i always play the role of the mean person in the relationship.
finally, you asked me " So there is no chance that we can still be together again?"
i was really begging you that you will still be my friend, but when i gave you the answer of No,
you just hang up and left me in a blank.
that is the end for you and me.
i hope that you can really move on from this,
don't probe over this so much,
i apologise that i cannot accept the way you show me your love and concern.
please do take care of yourself and i do hope to be able to stand by your side and give you support in time of needs, as a friend.
thank you, take care.
4:49:00 PM
Friday, May 29, 2009
i mugged OB like crazy and only got 12/20 for the quiz.. CRAP!
but, i still mugged MicroEcons in the library with crystal, liling and peiting today,
and i somehow hummed my song too loudly ( peiting said i sang though )..
i wanted to play pool at the student lounge but none of them knew how,
so we just settled out lunch at BizPark and went rotting outside OB's class.
the lesson was alright, and i just don't understand why my mind is always away and when asked to do some work, i am always in a daze till someone nudge me.
Intro to H&T's tutorial was so fun and there was so much laughter when other groups were presenting about their "Dream Destination" assignment.
and went through the lecture and Ms Joan asked calvin to give an example of something which is Perishable ( referring to Tourism) and he just replied "Bread :) "
The class immediately broke out into laughter and Calvin looked so lost.
our class has really nice and funny people around.
and that is what makes out class interesting. :)
and we got back our test papers and i was just a mark away to A!
ARRGH! I HATE THIS TOTALLY!
nevermind kamy, this signifies the time to really put in effort in your studies already.
stop letting your mind wander around..
Projects are piling up again, Mid Semester is coming!
My darling laptop is showing me symptoms that it is dying real soon.
STAND STRONG KAMY! YOU ARE CROSSING THE FIRST LAP SOON!
&& i have yet to make up my decisions,
i don't know what should i be pointing out to you..
you told me that you had fall ill made me imagine the sight of you tomorrow and i told myself that i would not be that strong to talk things out to you tomorrow.
but i have to.
what should i do?
i am fighting war within myself, between me, myself and i.
and i loathe it a lot. i want to concentrate on my studies.. but i am overstressed.
someone guide me please.
10:24:00 PM
Thursday, May 28, 2009
you are just too self-centered,
over sensitive,
and you just stand so strongly in your own perceptions.
you lacks the sense of security and need love and care on a 24/7 basis.
you get emotional so randomly that i do not know how to handle,
creating misunderstanding everyday to make us drift further apart
but you call it a way of understanding one another's feelings better.
but do you even understand how i feel?
you labelled me as being too stress,
with school, projects, exams and previously, my friend.
but the problem that actually disturbs me at interval, is the problem of you.
within this short period of time,
i was on the verge of telling you " I GIVE UP "
but on the other hand, my conscience stopped me.
i cannot be so selfish and irresponsible like how your ex(s) were,
somebody ought to point out your mistakes, enlighten you,
and bring you to the right path in life!
although it might not be totally me, i still hope to play my part well as a friend.
thing don't change overnight,
and i don't force you to change immediately.
i am holding back whatever i am feeling right now,
but i am soon breaking down.
i am a human, i have my own limits.
i am really tired now,
over these 3 problem filling days.
exam dates are drawing real close and i really need to concentrate.
but do you understand where the real problem lies?
you are flooding me with messages once every 5 to 10mins even when i don't respond to you,
and when there is no response,
your thinking runs wild.
and it really stress me up totally.
sometimes i just don't know what to reply to you,
i tried to be sweet to you but it was really hard on my part as those words weren't fully from what i am feeling deep within..
i have no more energy to run this race with you anymore,
it is just too exhausting and,
i really want to give up and catch a breath.
you say that i didn't accept the way you are while you have accepted mine.
but do you know that you are really hard to even be understood?
so how to you expect me to accept.
you gets upset over this issue and refuses accepting any comments.
in this way, would you get to learn?
you don't understand just how much effort i had put in.
you say that i am leaving you alone out there,
not caring about your well-beings,
but in fact, i am standing so much into your feelings and holding on with such difficulties hoping that you would change a bit.
you don't understand how bad and confused i am feeling now
holding on or letting go?
the question pops up in my mind frequently.
the painful thing to say is,
i am living on better without you, i realise it.
during the period of time when my phone was silent from anything from you,
it was really peaceful.
i can really feel the joy with my friends.
now my laptop is turning mad on me too,
and i am seriously breaking down very very soon from all this problems,
if not for all those friends who are reaching out a helping hand to me in various ways,
i cannot imagine how i would be now.
through all this typings,
i think i know what my decision is now.
i just have to confirm it, and be responsible for this decision.
and, you just don't understand a single thing.
nothing..
11:01:00 PM
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
my days was filled with worries yesterday
[if you saw the previous post, you will know]
friends thought i was mad because i was so random, laughing the first minute and the next minute crying.
but well, Mandy understands. :)
& people!!! my sister is a GUY
sister is just a mere nickname, don't mistaken..
since morning, Alicia kept me informed about how are things going,
her worries and really cause me to feel so much for her too,
i mean, i am standing in her point of view so much that my tears just rolled down when i think about sister's circumstances.
2nd hearing at 2.30pm..
i looked at the clock, no news from Alicia..
all till 3.45pm, i was told that the hearing isn't up yet. worries flood my mind again.
sister is on bail, but his father didn't make it in time before the bailing time close,
and he have to stay till today morning. Alicia was really really sad, so was I.
i thought that his dad was being ignorant to sister's well-being,
but it was wrong, his family really concern about him..
Alicia told me he would be bailed at 9am,
but later in the afternoon, she was told that he can only be bailed after 2pm!
HEY WHY IS THE OFFICERS AND POLICE IN SINGAPORE SO DAMN EFFING INEFFICIENT!?
[if i gets caught for this offensive sentence, i will fight for everything with my reasons till the end!]
and now, my phone is silent from everything,
no news about how things had gone, no message from sister that he is out already.
-worries-
but no matter what, i still pray that he is fine.
&& people, i ain't emotional or mad ok, i don't cry over nothing~
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ok, those classmates who read Mandy's blog should have known a little about yesterday evening's stuff.
she called Sandy "laogong" through the phone and Ben just teased her in between the discussion.
my mum called to say that my godfather is around SAFRA so we gave Mandy a lift home,
mummy was really hilarious and making Mandy laugh so madly, rocking her head so much along the way. and then, Jansen called and tell me he manage to apply off for his part time job and wants to meet me. i told Mandy and we were so excited.
she ask me to tell my mum but i was tongue-tied, so Mandy helped me.
ok, so mum's reaction was " BOYFRIEND AGAIN~?? aiyo~" and gave me that sheepish look,
then kept disturbing me, and tease me non-stop till we reached serangoon.
mandy left to find her boyfriend while we went to S11 for dinner.
Jansen came shortly but he was so shy because my mum keep looking at him sheepishly,
but my mum seems to like him abit. :D
and i realise we wore the same colour of shirt! OMG, telepathy~
lost of place to go, Jansen came over to my house and he sticked inside my room and refuses to go to the living room, mum saw me tugging at him and was like smiling, saying that i am funny.
and sooo, we stayed in my room DOORS AND WINDOWS WIDELY OPENED, CURTAINS DRAWN!!
dad came home, questioned about the big pair of shoes outside my house,
my mum told him and we see that there are "clouds" above him.
and so, i signalled him to make a move and i was so worried about what will happen when i gets home when walking him to the bus stop.
but everything is different from what i thought, my dad didn't even look at me since i got home.
talked on msn, crapped with mandy and went to sleep..
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2.50PM
SISTER IS OUT!!
totally lost for words when i saw his sms.
too happy to say anything..
the burden in me just dropped the second i saw the message.
& SISTER! please stop hiding things to yourself anymore,
i hope after this incident, you would really feel who are always behind you and had always been there for you. though it isn't obvious, but they can be sensed.
OPEN UP YOUR HEART AND ABSORB THEM LIKE A VACUMM.
now i know why you are so skinny, cause you don't absorb. LOLS!!
start absorbing from now! :)
take care sister!!
2:14:00 PM
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
a message reached me when i was waiting for bus at the interchange,
i could not hold back my feelings but teared the moment i read the message..
i don't know what offence it was, i don't know the seriousness of it, i don't know the consequences.
all i know is that, you are going to court.
although i cried, i headed to school, with a heavy heart..
i am praying within me, " you are going to be fine.."
and i really hope everything will be fine..
take care sister! i really hope that everything will be alright for you.
i will be waiting for you good news..
that is all i can wish for now.
11:58:00 AM
Saturday, May 23, 2009
got prepared before 9.20am and just walked to kaixin GIRLFRIEND's house.
i was suppose to be there at 10am, but you know, boyfriends are always early and i reached before 9.45am.
i really miss her alot ok!
took a train over to VivoCity with an empty stomach looking for food.
but the demoralising truth is that many restaurants are still closed and even looking at the un-user-friendly computer directory, we cannot manage to point out a shop we want..
we walked around and came to a restaurant which is OPEN.
brunched with a beautiful scenery behind GIRLFRIEND,
but we were just too hungry to even want to look at it other than the menu.
Jansen soon joined us and helped me finished a small portion of tofu and my jug of drink as i was over bloated.. thanks :D
pictures of us in Kim Gary [ the place we had our delicious food ]
Watched my first movie with GIRLFRIEND and of course, Jansen and his friend.
The Night at the Museum 2 is nice, but not as funny as the 1st one though, to me..
after the movie, GIRLFRIEND left for her camp and i went shopping around,
Jansen then felt hungry and we went to KFC to settle his lunch.
then, off we go to SENTOSA!!
it had been like, yearssss since i last been there.
took the Sentosa Express and alighted at the Beach Station,
walked along the beach and then sat down to chit chat for awhile.
the sky was so dark that we thought it was going to rain, but the sun eventually show itself shyly when we were sitting on the beach.
and Jansen starts to pollute the air!! D:
the cause of air pollution and ozone depletion.
and since we didn't have much things to see anymore and Jansen complains of backache and i dragging my feet with my heavy eyelids, Jansen's friend agreed that we head back to VivoCity to grab a drink and then rest for awhile..
grabbed a drink from Cheers, walked around and went into Toys 'R' Us and Jansen bought a Rubrik Cube [ or whatever it is said ] and his friend kept asking if he really knows how to play it and he was rather funny to take the little book which teaches you how to play, looked and affirmed us that he will figure it out some day.
and so, we walked out of Toys 'R' Us with the Cube [paid] and headed over to Compasspoint since Jansen said he never really been there before, and that guy looked rather disappointed after seeing what is there.
made fun of one another and chit chat at the bench at SCC and then went home.
the extra one.
had a super exciting and long day today,tomorrow's will be fun too!
goodnight readers (:
that little secret between us.
Friday, May 22, 2009
unexpectedly, messages received this morning were those of
" HEY, I WILL NOT BE GOING FOR RHT LECTURE.. SEE YOU GUYS AFTER THAT :) "
looks like not only ❤Mandy and i thought it was boring and a total wastage of time..
sorry jiajie for not answering your call! i was still sleeping soundly D:
met with ❤Mandy for brunch at Sengkang, McDonald's, and i simply wonder why are there stares on her wherever she goes. and funny thing is, she didn't notice some of it. but i helped her stare back, fiercely! LOLS!
ate, chatted, laughed, copied notes and left for school.
reached rather early and just roamed around before going up to class.
Intro to H&T was cancelled as Ms Joan is sick, again.
Took a bus with Peiting, Crystal and ❤Mandy to Tampines and we separated,
while ❤Mandy shopped with me for a while before going back to meet her boyfriend.
shopping alone was usual for me and i was fast!
i bought a top from M)phosis [ with ❤Mandy's affirmation that it looks nice ] & a shirt from Uniqlo.
the top from Uniqlo.
the top from M)phosis, totally
❤❤
❤
it!
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sometimes things are just meant to be shared by people who feels comfortable with one another, and not just with any Tom, Dick or Harry.. and we were just filling up one another about lives since we didn't see each other for days! so you have an issue with it?
so it is just useless to be squeezing in, trying to fit in or anything. It is just useless!
This is year 2009 already, tears don't grant you anything. maybe when you were younger, yes. but please, grow up now.
and do you even know what is the meaning of SOUL-MATES and FATE?
sometimes the feeling just came and that 2person will just click.
so why gets so upset?
have some pride in yourself, friends won't bring you very far, neither can complains do.
i am sorry but i have to be mean. because we just can't tolerate this overly sensitive attitude of yours.
you give me headache! 
and i think i look way much better than you even when i go emo.
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MANDY HAD BEEN SKIPPING SCHOOL SO OFTEN TILL I GOT SO BLURRED UPON WHICH DAYS SHE WAS ABSENT AND WHAT CLASS SHE SKIPPED!! D:
ALRIGHTS READERS, LOVE ME OR HATE ME, I GOT TO GO NOW!
fetching my girlfriend as early as 10am at her house and meeting silly at 11.30am at ViVo tomorrow and it is gonna be a long day for me!
CIAOS ❤
love is blinded,
so it is hard to proceed if the "lovers" aren't blind.
and i am glad i aren't.
2:07:00 AM
Thursday, May 21, 2009
reached school at 8.25am in school yesterday, i didn't came out earlier or anything, but it's just so coincident that whenever i reach the bus stop, the bus arrives.
and so, i am in school early. :)
and the sad thing is, no one believe that i am in school when i went online while eating at Biz Park. BCS lecture ended in the blink of an eye and STRUCK OF STARS!
MicroEcons was like a machine gun and i can't seem to get anything from the lecturer's words into my mind, a bit actually. so i just took pictures of the slide and stoned. D:
LECTURES ENDED!
went to Cheers to grab some snacks, crystal and i decided to buy Nachos.
i pressed the button for cheese like mad but nothing came out, i thought it need to wait to warm the cheese or whatever, so i waited patiently, but NOTHING CAME OUT!
and with my past McDonald's experience, i opened the cover without hassle and saw that the pack of cheese on top comfortably and and WARMED!
i noticed a white button in it and pressed on it, then the cheese came 'juuping' out.
it was like so sudden and i yelped when it came out, then huixin and crystal laughed like mad..
and since no one bothered about us, we pressed the cheese to our hearts content and
left to do the Intro to H&T project.
researched, laughed, gawked, talk and finished the project.
but midway, huixin shook the paint marker paint so hard i think the cap flew off and crystal and i were spotted golden! hahaha. you can never imagine how shocked crystal looked. D:
and since i am already "painted" i drew a sakura on my leg.
went to mum's office, vacuumed for her then went home, got my heels and headed to hougang mall to meet Jeremy to buy some headphones and microphone.
before he reach, i went to the cobbler and the uncle was super unfriendly, but well, at least he got my heels done.
it is the pair of heels which i had been wanting to repair since prom.
been soooo many months already.
bought his stuffs and went to eat, and there was this little girl sitting opposite me who turned and smiled at me. i like kids ok, so i just smiled back.
that little girl got so excited she would turn her head to look at me so frequently and i felt so harrassed. so i thought of covering my eyes to avoid her.
but i peeped through my fingers and noticed her looking at me and not even taking her eyes off me.
ohmygosh! i think she likes me!
see how decent she looked when she didn't look at me
then how sicko she looked when she eyes on me! D:
went home after that, wanted to write out the MicroEcon's notes but my eyelids were just too heavy so i went to sleep as early as 9.50pm.
and look at the time now, i am already all dressed up and prepared for school since 8am? and my lessons starts at 11am! why the hell am i awake since 7am?
erm, cannot blame that silly to call me at that time because i didn't tell him i wanted to sleep in later.. but nevermind, here i am, wasting my time blogging~
ALRIGHTS! gotta reply to those sms spams, comb my lion-ish looking hair and get prepared to leave. :)
bye readers!
&& i have fallen into your trap, silly.
8:51:00 AM
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
today was a really thrilling day for me.
messages woke me up as early as 6.18am,
then since i was half awake, i decided to do my research for CommSkill's essay writing in the afternoon. but i had to skip my favourite OB's lecture. so saddening, but no choice~
and i did the research and prepared slowly, thinking that lesson starts at 1pm.
fortunately, huixin gave me a call and ask told me the lesson in at 12pm and i hopped on a cab.
the amazing thing is, i only told the uncle the location and he just drove so fast,
when i raise my head from my many smses, i am opposite school already.
made a mad dash from Applied Science school all the way to the lab, planned my butt on the chair of BCS at 12.17pm. total crap! cause i will be marked absent after 15mins late. whatever~
BCS finished in the blink of an eye and we had a break,
stick around Biz park doing nothing then went for CommSkill class.
essay time.
i was totally out of the sense of time as i do not have my watch on [ but with that silly's leather bracelet. ] and the clock on the wall died at 11.10..
but all i know is, my essay looks more like some composition with no links to the M.A.P,
and though we were tasked to write a 600 words essay, i only managed to add in more words and bring it to a 500 words one.
HOME-Y TIME!
took bus 8 with Mandy and we saw a guy, Mandy pointed him out and said that he is cool, i looked and when he raise his head, i realise it was my first primary school's friend. but it is already close to 11years, bet he won't recognise me. LOLS!
then we alighted and took bus 43, and i saw a guy who looks cute [ but dozing off ] but i just couldn't take my eyes off him. i am not despo or a paedophile ok..
and the bus ride with Mandy was a weirdie one!
i kept seeing guys touching themselves, those you-know-where..
IT IS SO GROSS! - so wanted to die -
and so, after this stupid, long and disgusting ride, i am finally home. :D
gotta get some stuffs done and go to bed~
9:23:00 PM
Sunday, May 17, 2009
though everyone longed for weekends to come so that they can go out and de-stress themselves, i stayed at home over the weekends and faced the computer for more than 12 hours each day.
i studied half of Intro to H&T,
i completed my APEL's survey and life mission,
but..
i haven't completed my research for CommSkills and i have an 600words essay to write on Tuesday, i guess i am bound to fail it. sighs. i wanted to do it, but i just cannot concentrate.
i wasted my weekends meaningless-ly, wasting my time on those useless stuffs,
all, but not on my studies.
somebody motivate me please!
9:43:00 PM
Thursday, May 14, 2009
BREAKDOWN.
assignments are piling on me,
group works, projects.
we have to check the internet frequently to see if there is any notes to print and things to prepare for the next lecture/tutorials. and everything is not under the same website, missed it, you are doomed. and the most irritating thing is, the password for different websites are different.
lectures are so hard to understand, tutors either talk like machine guns or that they are TOO monotonous and create that blur look on most of us.
and even before we can manage, tests are coming, deadlines are near.
WHAT THE HELL IS THIS!?
i am bound to fail this semester, i can bid farewell to my GPA and diploma.
"POLY IS THE PLACE TO BE!" , " POLY IS FUN, RELAX, HAS LOTS OF FREEDOM, NO STRESS"
it all sounds so ironic, look at my situation now, do i look at all relax?
to others, they will say " why so stress? it is only week 4 man~ "
but to me " HEY! IT IS ALREADY WEEK 4!! ohmyeffinggod, i still haven't got anything into me yet. and i don't really understand anything. "
whenever i walk pass fastfood restaurants and see students mugging hard, i wish i was like them,
at least they know what they learnt, but i don't! what is this!?
and my classmates? they just fleed after lectures and tutorials ends, there is no sign of group discussions nor study group formed. maybe there is, but i know my group don't has it.
COME ON PEOPLE! STOP WASTING YOUR LIFE!
START WORKING THINGS OUT!!
i am concerned about my life, studies, future.
i gets more stressed up when i see my time ticking away while i am getting nothing into me.
please, i need someone to study with me!!
1:06:00 AM
Sunday, May 10, 2009
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!
woke up real early today to get the food for ahma,
but the weather wasn't on our side.
ok, we agreed with my aunt on steamboat because i know there is that steamboat cum bbq thing in her house, but she was so incooperative today that she refuse to do steamboat. my mum got no choice but to cook everything in a big pot then eat together..
nothing beats seeing the smile on her face :)
and as always, disturbing me. :D
and after everything, i went to cut my hair. [:
i like my new haircut! yea, bangs.
and MANDY, i can't believe people say we look alike..
i think you might be sad because i can be the double of you =
10:42:00 PM
as usual, i spent half of my life away on msn chatting with friends. but it was fun to have Jansen there to make me laugh throughout our conversation, he kept doing all those stupid things.
that was really capable of him to make me laugh so much.
he was also caught doing funny things unawaringly by me and i showed it to Mandy,
and she went " WHAT THE F**K!? "
that picture will really embarass Jansen, so lets save him some face and post a better picture of him :)
alrights, i gotta sleep now.
gotta wake up at 8am to get the food and everything for steamboat at granny's house.
cause..
ITS MOTHER'S DAY!!
i love my mummy and my ah ma!! :D
good nights people!
you don't have to apologise to me,
just know your mistakes, amend it
and there will be peace.
2:06:00 AM
Friday, May 8, 2009
it was half way through my bus 34's journey when it started raining so heavily.
jiajie and aaron was there too, and that girl just came and poke me while i was sleeping.
we dropped off at the 69's bus stop and realised we just missed it by a few minutes.
we waited but only taxis passed by, all available when we "raise our hand".
having only the last 8minutes left for school, we flagged a cab, but i was rather sorry that Giam and his friend couldn't squeeze in, he is just to big sized you see.
[ don't kill me please! ]
and when we reached the school with only 2minutes left, jiajie initated the 3of us squeeze under a small unbrella to walk through the shorter but totally unsheltered route towards our school.
and i was all drenched, so was my books and notes when we were finally sheltered.
i sat in the superly and totally unbelieveable boring lecture for like 49minutes and went home,
to get changed since i got time till 2pm for the next tutorial.
received a call from Belicia asking whether i am joining them for Michelle's celebration,
i almost forgot so i simply grabbed any comfortable wear and left the house.
when i reached tampines mall, they are already cutting the cake.
Intro to H&T's tutorial was cancelled so it means,
EARLY DISMISSAL TO GO HOME! 8D
and so, i took bus with Mandy till she reach her boyfriend's house while i went home.
alright, dinner's calling!
gonna have my first [proper] meal of the day.
BYE~~
she just makes a good company ❤
7:00:00 PM
i just realised that i got into a wrong group,
yesterday, we were asked by the tutor to present during CommSkills,
everyone in our group are exchanging looks until Mandy and I volunteered to do it.
but seriously speaking, we didn't understand a single crap that was written there,
and the tutor just shot us many questions leaving us standing there like idiots when the rest at the table just stare into blank and refuses to help us.
yes, it was supposed to be a group work, but it wasn't even discussed within the group!
points which were half written by Mandy and me were erased and replaced by other's points of view.
so is it still a group work?
if you think you can handle so well by yourself, then why still group?
you are simply too childish and selfish to be able to understand teamwork!
and this are the reasons why i got so frustrated over all of you.
like it or not, that is the fact.
i don't like people who are so selfish even when we are supposed to work together.
however, your stupid character won't succeed in making my life bad.
i enjoyed talking to Mandy on msn through night though.
she made my day.
and she is the buddy Kamy Teo :)
and i am telling you this, if you choose people to work with and refuse to even work with us, you can, really bid goodbye to your desired GPA score.
reason being, we are not going to be together for the entire life in TP,
so if you can't communicate well with new people, that is the end for you, your life.
i guess the one whom i am saying about knows who they are,
you can hate me, curse me, whatever you want.
cause i don't like you either unless you change your god damned attitude..
thank you
12:37:00 AM
Thursday, May 7, 2009
we used to stand together as one, trying to prove to everybody that
we are a team.
United and Bonded are what others label us as,
we ignored about comments that we will separate as weeks goes by.
it's our beliefs.
How ironic our thinkings can be,
clique starts to form,
and differences between each group can be seen.
sometimes criticism remarks are passed behind one another's back.
plans and activities are only known among people in their own clique.
why is it so?
aren't we suppose to be together as how we used to be?
does it really means that if we are different in certain ways, we must be outcasted, discriminated and separated?
why?
normal as it may seems to most of you,
but in my own perception, this isn't a good thing.
i think everything will be better when there is no barrier between one another.
works can be done faster.
when you stand in my point of view, you will know what i mean.
otherwise, just read and go..
thank you
10:59:00 AM
Saturday, May 2, 2009
make-up for those missing posts
27th APRIL 2009
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOYCELYN a.k.a my sweetest SWEETIE ❤
though i didn't get to meet her today to celebrate her birthday but my wishings reached her very sweetly and although i wasn't with her, she spent her day to the fullest too.
miss ya tons sweetie ❤
26TH APRIL 2009
HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY JEFFREY FONG a.k.a SISTER!! :D
[ you are getting oooold~~ -grins- ]
alright, yesterday i went to his chalet to celebrate for him.
i acted clever by going to the DowntownEast's resort, pay for the entrance, got a stamp on my hand and realised i went to the wrong place.
and this really gave Jeff a laugh when i called to tell him that i am lost,
along the way, he told me there was some misunderstanding going on with his girlfriend's mum and i knew what it all meant through the 30 to 45 minutes sit outside there.
i shall not state the situation here as it had already passed. :)
it saddens me so much to see how bad my friend is feeling, although we weren't that close, but the unhappy look on them actually hits me badly, and this bad feeling cause me to cry while clearing up the mess with his friends.
i called to check on his this morning and was relieved to know that he had enjoyed after i left, and he somehow nagged me for the way i wrapped his present, but i was stil glad that it made his day, especially that the gift was useful to him [ a wallet actually :) ].
now that everything have been fine and that you assured me that you had enjoyed your 21st birthday, i am happy for you too.
please don't scold me for crying cause i know i won't be anymore since you are smiling now *peace*
9:46:00 PM
